stillamobiandefender | [Tumblr meme] Dear person I like,

I don't understand you. You seem to change your mind about me all the time. I'm an idiot. I'm not an idiot. I'm a whiner. I'm not a whiner. Are you able to make up your mind on what I really am to you? Because I've already decided what you are to me and it hasn't changed the whole time I know you. I just keep trying to guess what you think and it's hard because you hide it all from me.

I just so badly fear disappointing you. But I think you know that now. Because you're the one who's always there, you're the one who's got his head above his shoulders and keeps me from sinking. I'm practically a leech on you and I don't like it much at all, I don't like burdening you like that, but at the same time I don't want you to leave. You're the only consistency, the only guarantee. You haven't left and I don't want that to change. I mean, it's literally because of you I'm still alive right now -- I could'a just died from blood loss if you didn't find me curled up with my legs severed. I wonder what you thought when you saw me like that...

You mean a whole lot to me and that's why I'm so frustrated I can't figure you out. What do you want from me? What do I have to do? Stand on my hands or something, because you know heck, I WILL DO IT. If that's what's gonna get your attention, if that's what's gonna get your approval, I will do it. The only thing I can't do for you is walk again. That's been taken away from me...

I know you're mad at my friends for not talking to me too, that's another thing. But I don't want to be lectured about that because they've been here for me in the past, and I know you say that the 'now' matters more... but I doubt I'd even be here, I doubt there'd even be a 'now' for me if it weren't for them. They're my best friends! And I just want them back, I just don't want to be alone, just as I've said to you...

... Really, please... don't leave me... I...

Dammit, as much as I don't want to admit it, I need you.

- Sonic.